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Okay, I have other thoughts on having a great time in my climbing class (such wonderfully supportive teammates - can't wait to see them in the gym!), I got a shitton of work done on my dissertation today (a useful and well timed exercise in why you need deadlines), and I'm really looking forward to getting away for 36 hours this weekend with Greg and Nick (just like ol' times :), but right now... I feel like I am trying to convince my cat to live :(
She's still not eating on her own, she's losing weight rather than gaining, and she's just never been *that* kind of cat. She's always been... aloof and spartan and not affectionate. I feel like with Calvin, I know what to do, that affection works, that he wants to be here with me. With Yoshimi... I feel like... I don't know :(
And at the same time, she's a love. She's transforming into an affectionate cat. Who wouldn't with a feeding tube and constant attention?
And then she flicks her tail and me and it breaks my heart. That's how we picked her, flicking her tail in her humane society crate...
I want to speak to her and have her listen and tell her and have her hear me that I love her more than anything and want to live with her forever and ever. Because I do!
She's still not eating on her own, she's losing weight rather than gaining, and she's just never been *that* kind of cat. She's always been... aloof and spartan and not affectionate. I feel like with Calvin, I know what to do, that affection works, that he wants to be here with me. With Yoshimi... I feel like... I don't know :(
And at the same time, she's a love. She's transforming into an affectionate cat. Who wouldn't with a feeding tube and constant attention?
And then she flicks her tail and me and it breaks my heart. That's how we picked her, flicking her tail in her humane society crate...
I want to speak to her and have her listen and tell her and have her hear me that I love her more than anything and want to live with her forever and ever. Because I do!
